icouldn'tcareless

Time constraint

2012-02-11T02:00:00.005+08:00

I can't believed that there's bunch of people who actually 'kecik hati' or 'terasa' or whatever words that synonyms with it because i didn't tell them that i'm studying abroad DIRECTLY in front of their faces?

Ok look here people, i might not telling you directly but i DID inform few people that are closed to you and ASSUMED that they will tell you too. How the hell am i supposed to tell EVERYONE when i didn't know myself that i will be studying abroad?

The actual plan supposed to be in 2010 and got canceled, and out of the blue(can i use green?) after i received my result last august my dad asked me if i wanted to go to uk but with conditions that i have to DO IT ALL BY MY OWN.

So people if you think that it is super easy to settle EVERYTHING meaning EVERY FUCKING THINGS within 3 FUCKING MONTHS(exclude nov n dec cz need to studylah)....i really have nothing to say...please use your brain to think about how hectic in those period of time. Geez why am i explaining anyway?

Urm do i need to explain what are those everything in everything that i just mention? maybe i should write it down cz they think my life is super easy.

-applying for college

-visa

-ielts

-bank

-flight

-house

and other shits :)

oh did i say it needs to be settle in 3months?

n oh another facts that maybe i should write here is that, i DID come and looking for you people in the hostel but you weren't there. So anything else yg xpuas hati?

The funny part is we are not even that close...well yeah we are friends since CAT or later? but we are not that SUPER CLOSE, we barely seen each other or even talk to each other EVEN if we met the conversation roughly will only be like "oh hi and bye".

I JUST DON'T GET IT, WHY CAN'T YOU ASK PROPERLY INSTEAD OF TALKING BACK?

i absolutely have NO FUCKING ISSUE WITH YOU, but i think you are the one who's making a big fuss about it right now....

herm...what else? oh! there's another thing! it's related to Facebook...as i updated my status, i said i'm cool with it cz i do think its a childish behaviour for removing/deleting your friend pics or unfriend on fb....seriously guys, are you people still in primary school? *shaking head* tsk tsk but hey i don't mind at all, its your fb after all, you can do anything you like about it right? :D

i'm kinda sick about this friend/friendship thinggy....the best thing that i can think about it right now is to ignore n assumed everything is ok. So if my friends wanted to talk bad about me or back stabbing me or bashing me etc etc please do so, one thing that i can assure you is that i WON'T talk bad about you at all, why? bcz wasting my time and energy.

But seriously, i totally have no idea what i did wrong to them,what makes them so pissed or perhaps hate me? i don't get it!!! was it that bad??? n i didn't realised what i did wrong? ohh come one! tell meeeeeee

If YOU are my TRUE friend, you must realised that i HATE talk bad about other people n it's rare for me to start a conversation to 'mengumpat' about others.....am i right? xde faedah pon bukak cerita psl org n mengumpat, xpuas hati ckp terus terang2 depan2 bukan blkg2 ok? xkan ini pon nk bhtau? aihhh

BUT i think i need to EMPHASIZED it once again that seriously i absolutely have no issue with you, so do whatever you like...if u still thinking that i'm ur friend that i will be one, if not.....urmmm i'm still your friend.PEACE :)

my feeling towards this issue is frustrated+sad.

oh welllll life must go onnnnnn and make MORE(if rajin cz i'm a bit anti social heh) friends!

P/S: I CANT WAIT TO BLOG FOR THE NEXT POST!

My Preparations to UK

2012-01-03T21:59:00.016+08:00

1. We need shoes! This shoes is so cool cz the pattern n the material is wool!!!

grey with brown stripe-onitsuka tiger

2. Obviously we need coat! I bought 2 coats and both are trench coats~ green n grey, till now i have no idea which one should i where when i landed at heathrow airport herm...any suggestion?

Green trench(military style) coat-MNG

Grey 100%wool trench coat(front)- Calvin Klein

Grey 100% wool trench coat (back)-Calvin Klein

both are super gorgeous is't??? love them so muchhh! btw the green coat i forgot to take the back pic...sorry the pattern is nice too! nfor the grey coat, i really love the platted at the back :)

3. Huge luggage! mine is 29 inch with 6.67kg woohhh super heavy! but luckily i registered under MAS enrich (thanks to ayie for the info) i can bring extra 10kg as a student! meaning in total i can bring 30kg :D

Lime green-Royal McQueen

on top of the luggage is my medicine from sister!

4.Since i'm not gonna bring any of my handbags so here is my backpack!

Green backpack-Uniqlo

5.Of course i will need a laptop bag for my laptop

Black laptop bag-Toshiba

6. The laptop! bought it with aziemah, she even bought the golden sticker(at kinokuniya) for me!(obviously i choosed the design :p) but she's the one who stick it on my laptop using...ruler! haha thanks~

and for the colourful cats i bought it with ukie-chan(at giant) she bought the exact design for her self too :)

THATS ALL!

Oh wait! my sis gave me a surprise, there's a box nicely wrap on my luggage n i just noticed it when i was back from uitm around 2.30pm n guess what it is!

it's a WATCH that i wanted for ages! well actually if uguys noticed it i wore this watch since i was 15 n the watch got stolen in 2008 when i was taking my wudu' at seroja block 1, level 1 around 5-6pm. I still can remember it cz it's was a pmr present n i love it sooooooooo much! i can't believe that my sis secretly bought it for me cz i told her that i wanted to buy it if i have the money unfortunately i don't have enough money.....seriously i'm so touch! literally wanted to cry :(

here's the pic!

for some reason i can't upload the one that i'm wearing right now cz the pic is blur cz its too shiny? seriously i'm not joking...but this is the exact watch :)

AND MY MUMMY BOUGHT ME A BLACKBERRY TORCH and her reason is just because she could bbm with me for free!

i REALLY NEED to complete my ACCA by dec 2012! insya-allah >.

Bye2 2011 n Hello 2012

2011-12-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

I'M SHOWING OFF MY NEW HAIRCUT! COOL IS'T IT? HEHEHEHHEHE XDDDDD

btw...
There's too many things to write about but too little time(mls nk tulis sebenarnya).

1. Received parcel frm NY! love it so much!!! hehe i used to gave him serunding and kuih raya back then when he keeps saying h how much he missed malaysian food. The funny thing is he can cook malay food n he's not even a malay >.> shame on me! He gave me this xs men's shirt as in a REAL men's shirt not a boyfriend's shirt..well it suits me but the only problem is that the sleeve length is TOO LONG! urm...will figure it out how to fix it later then only i post up the pics ;D

2.Since i'm leaving whops didn't i tell u? well i might blog about this later...the point is,my brother sent me an awesome parcel! woohoooooooooooooo!!!!!! all the way frm japan bebeh XD

3.An indian lady at the ielts subang jaya reception counter discriminate me! WTH? i'm not bluffing! seriously my friend accompanied me even she noticed it! when i asked her nicely to register she asked me to take the form by myself, then she asked me if i bring photocopied ic and i replied no...immediately she respond "can't u ask your friend to do it for you? the shop is downstairs" nope it doesn't stops here...

discrimination continues,when i asked her certain question in the form that i don't understand she replied "simple question like this also doesn't know how to fill in,everything is in the form" then she shake her head...

what's your problem aunty? then when my friend came back,i gave back the form to her later when she read my name she got pissed? n asking on my surname. Her pitch was high as i remembered, well yeah i know it's RARE for a malay to have a surname but my family has it so what? luckily there's a guy (the manager maybe) came out n checking on us, that india lady immediately shove the form to him unfortunately the guys just said "never mind just follow what is stated on the ic"

BAM! duhh aiyooo aunty u no see my name on my ic then want to scold me for no reason? (b4 dat i wrongly wrote the date that i'm setting for the test so she ASSUMED that i'm making my own surname? heh.)

untill now i'm not sure why she was so pissed at me...was it because when i wanted to fill in the form i just grab a pen that's on the table without asking? because she then asked me didn't i bring my own...pen?

but then as i said when i have to take the form by myself, there's a group of boys entered while i was filling the form she was SUPER NICE to the boys! she TOOK the form for them! she even explain as DETAILED where to photocopied ics n take photo etc etc WTH???

if it's bcz of gender but when i entered there was a chinese girl before me picking up her ielts result, that indian aunty smiled n even congratulated her.......

so my conclusion is that...urm myb bcz i'm a malay girl.heh.

p/s: luckily when i took the the test she wasn't there and the speaking examiner is also an indian lady but wayyyyyyyyyy nicer than her! n oh should i blog about my preparation before flying off to london? oh wait i didn't even mention that i'm flying off to london didn't i?

SUPER Early breakfast!

2011-11-18T00:16:00.007+08:00

When i said SUPER EARLY as in reaaaaaalllyyyyyyy eaaarrrrlllyyyyyyy hahah which was around 12.12am! well ok my dish supposed to be a supper because who ever who know me that i HAVE to pampered my tummy...so everytime my tummy growling i have to fed it!

So today i had my lunch around 12.20pm than i had my tea around 4.30pm and i had my dinner around 7.50pm and my tummy started to growling again around 11.30pm....which i had no idea why? yes i'm a big eater well actually i have terrible gastric so i cannot and will never ignore when my tummy needs food....i had enough bad vomiting experienced because of gastric.

Nope.I'm not talking about my gastric problem but my cooking skill! most people know that i'm a princess here in my house cz i never EVER do any house work...even if i DID let's say sidai baju or angkat baju i will get paid atleast rm50...yerp! no kidding XD

since my maid already asleep...well even if she's awake...i hate her cooking so i try to cook something for my self...well usually instant noodle or half boiled egg or my half telur goreng sandwich haha so basically i only know how to cook eggs! ;p

and today i tried to cook baked beans and poached egg! and i'm so proud of my 1st POACHED EGG! it was so beautiful!!! i mean come on...i don't even know how to cook perfect fried egg but my poached was marvelous!

Look here! awesome right? :D

oh wait till u see the egg yolk!

ok maybe i don't have the skill to take perfect picture but yeah whatever! as long i know how perfect my poached egg was!

i think this pic look funneyh...the egg yolk have an ulcer! (baked bean sauce...does it call baked bean sauce?)

maybe i actually do have cooking talent? heh.

P/s: supposedly be studying right now...my finals just in 2weeks :O

December please come faster..

2011-11-15T01:31:00.003+08:00

This is really mentally tortured and i really had enough! Please please please stop torturing me!!!! is't not enough i had since i was 6years old and up until now???? if you think i lived like a princess and being pampered everyday well yes i have to admit that as the fact but deep inside NOBODY know how hard i need bear with it! God please i really really really had enough of this!

The MAJOR TORTURE when i was 15years old and yes please i'm fucking 22 this year and totally had enough of this freaking torturing shit!!!!!!

How i wish i could except from this and please let the others have it! it was seriously unfair that it was only and ONLY me as the victim! Late December-Early January please come faster!!! i could not handle of this 17years torturing..... :(

p/s: i activate my fb back so that i could wish lily's birthday and friend could tag me in her pics(cz i found myself look so pretty in it *sumpah angkat bakul sendiri* but since she's to fucking lazy to tag my name so i i decided to deactivate it back soon.

TT^TT & OouchHHhh heheh :D

2011-11-03T20:51:00.006+08:00

I kinda like the idea of using emoticons for the tittle, because i'm such a lazy ass to think a perfect tittle for my post...which i hope my emoticons do reflect the story behind it...and as you guys can see there's 2 emoticons in the tittle therefore i have 2 stories to tell...if you don't understand what it actually means..

So here my 1st story...

I OFFICIALLY BREAK UP WITH MARISSA! TT^TT

OH MY GOD! I'M GONNA MISS HER SO MUCHHHH!!!!! I HOPE SHE KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE HER!!!! BUT I THINK THIS IS THE BEST FOR BOTH OF US :((

2/11/2011 is the date where i left her sob sob..

If you don't understand what the hell am i talking about well...you guys can read my previous post here! -->http://maplecatlynx.blogspot.com/2011/09/goodbye-marissa.html

And my 2nd story goes like this...

Friend: we'r here u better try it!

me: Urmmmmmmmmmm *hesitate*

Friend: oh come on~ u will like it for sure

me: uh uh *curiosity*

Friend: well i'm going then

me: can i join u? i mean just wanna see how it works first than later i will decide...

Friend: yeah sure~

Reception lady: i'm sorry miss we have rules&regulation that must be followed

Friend: so she can't come in with me?

Reception lady: i'm afraid not

Friend: ok then, u wait here for me outside

me: Ok i'm in! *decided*

Me entered a dim room...

lady: is this your 1st time?

me: yeah hahah kinda afraid though

lady: nahh it's ok, i will be gentle

me: erk ok..will it be hurt?

lady: a little maybe...but don't worry to much, u will be fine.

me: err ok..

lady: ok relax..1 2 3

me: OUCH!

So far that's my whole experienced for waxing my legs :D

Planning to upload few pics of my legs but i'm afraid people will drooling over my sexy+hot legs!

Now i do think my legs are nice as the girls k-pop idols aka SNSD or AFTERSCHOOL or whatever k-pop idols shit that they have heh XD

p/s: here's a pic of my lovely marissa!

Revealing the truth..

2011-10-26T17:02:00.005+08:00

If u guys read my previous post in july with the title 'Two faces'...well yeah, i'm revealing the person who's behind it now...if u haven't read it n have the feeling too 'menyebuk' u guys can read the post here --->http://maplecatlynx.blogspot.com/2011/07/two-faces.html

Do you really want to know?

Really wanna know who?

may i know why?

That person got nothing to do with you anyway...so why do you wanna know??

Eh penyibuk sungguh nak tau...

Fine2 but don't regret later when you know it cz u might be the person? who knows right?..

That person is......

My previous MAID

Dah? puas hati? menyesal x bce? regret n wasting 2 seconds of your time reading it? well i have warned u earlier n this is definitely not my problem heh.

p/s: should be studying today but then i got STOMACH ACHE, PERIOD PAIN, GASTRIC N HUNGRY all at the same time...urgh hate this feeling ever!

My most BEAUTIFUL friend is married!

2011-10-02T00:56:00.010+08:00

I can't remember on how or when we met but since then we'r quite close together...we used to do alot of crazy n stupid things together,talk about random things together do secret things together,gossiping together,laugh together,sad about nonsense together and now....i don't think we can spent time together like we used to do ever again :(

But i am very happy that i could make it on your big day! I told you before no matter happened i will be there for you and yes i was there! i really dont know how to express my feeling how happy i was seeing u smile brightly on your wedding day~

Hope you and your hubby will produce beautiful babies in future! (let's pray all your children will have your features and not your hubby! :p)

and again CONGRATULATIONS SYAZ~ and will love you always <3

p/s: i hope you won't forget your promise! n yeah you can claim your 'present' from me later heheh~

p/s/s: somehow i just realised there's no picture of us hugging+playing around in my camera? hope the photographer took it!

GOODBYE MARISSA!

2011-09-20T18:20:00.005+08:00

Marissa..what a beautiful name....The 1st time i saw you in JB.......immediately i fall for you and since that day i couldn't stop thinking about....i was thinking so hard on how to be with you...i want to feel you and touch you....oh only god knows how much i wanted you so badly! After so many years we spent time together....we ate together,we were are having fun together, we even slept together! This is the time that i must let you go......please just go.....i can't be with you anymore....you will belong to someone who love you more than i do....and promise me that you wont look back.....yes i will treasure our moments together deep in my heart and lastly i just wanted to say that you are the most gorgeous jeans i ever seen in my whole life!

Wait.what.a jeans?

Of course i'm talking about my jeans you silly! what else? what were you guys thinking? duh...

Ahhh how sad giving away my marissa to my own friend....well what to do....she love my marissa so much! she even said that she dream about marissa long time ago even before WE know each other? say what???? and oh not to forget that she claim that marissa is her 'LUCKY JEANS'!!!! she even make cute pouty faces...so..urm...

Well yeah something actually happened that makes my friend fall in love with my marissa and i don't think it is appropriate for me to talk about 'what was actually happened' here......so yeah.

AHHH! how can i refuse not giving marissa to her? Fine,friends are much much much more important to me....maybe next time i could find another marissa? (maybe i could ask her to buy marissa from me? YEAH! what a brilliant idea~ XD)

Thats it for today....i'm blogging while wearing my marissa for the last time! will give her to my friend this friday....to be honest i'm pretty sad actually haha! since marissa is my 1st expensive brandded jeans that i bought with my own pocket money so....ok i should end it now.

DAMN I HAVE CLASS AT 4PM!

p/s: i will upload marissa pic in my next post...stay reading! :D

Are you over weight?

2011-08-26T23:26:00.005+08:00

I do think this is the right time for me to post on how to lose some weight since RAYA is just around the corner,well as a malaysia/islam/malay or whoever you are and IF you ever tested KETUPAT,RENDANG,LEMANG,KUAH KACANG,LODEH etc etc well these are the main dishes on the first of raya and yess there are super delicious and also can make you FAT!

Don't be too happy if you manage to lose 3kg during Ramadhan because i bet during 1month of Eid Mubarak you could gain 5kg!

Not to worry people because this is the reason why i'm blogging right now to share a tip on how to lose weight :D

what is the tip? simple as ABC,its not gonna cost you any money to the gym and hire a personal instructor or buying an expensive gym equipment at all! The only thing that you need is your MOUTH.

I'm sure most of your mouth attach to your face right? so you don't need to be afraid if you left your mouth in the drawer or something and the only thing that you need to do is...

CHEW YOUR FOOD 40 TIMES

and the results you could lose 12% of your calorie intake...

enough of my explanation here,too lazy to write further more and if you guys don't believe please refer to this site -->http://emedicinelive.com/medical-news/19-obesity-management/230-chew-more-to-reduce-your-calorie-intake

(proven by 2 doctors from china in their research)

what i'm trying to link here is actually...

IF you'r a Muslim most probably you heard at least once a sunnah by our Prophet Muhammad (SAW) to chew our food 40times before swallow it. So this recent news is actually not really NEW to us the muslims.

Why must the people still in denial when Islam actually a very beautiful religion and balance in everything. All sorts of science and technology actually all written in our Holy book Al-quran.

And i do actually have few friends who eat SUPER SLOW and yes they are SUPER SKINNY too, and i do realised that they chew longer...and they always wondering why they can't gain weight even though they way their eating is too slow but they have big appetite, so i guess i have the answer for them :)

Credits to Hitz.fm rush hour (if i'm not mistaken) because i heard about the news when i was tunning it and they are discussing whether chewing 40times is actually reliable or not and sharing stories with the listeners on method of diet that is not working on them.

p/s: Brother is BACK! yesterday sahur while i was eating my 2-3 last of 'suap nasi' i gave a quick glance oh his plate..at that moment his plate was FULL with lauk-pauk and mountain of rice!(if you ever had dinner or lunch with my family,you probably know how BANYAK our lauk-pauk XD) than when i'm finishing my last bite i realised that my brother's plate is LICIN! i wonder if it was me chewing my food too SLOW or my brother has a super power?

Not all female love shopping

2011-08-14T17:58:00.005+08:00

Post kali ini terasa nk tulis dalam bahasa melayu pulak, nak cuba best ke x heheh..

Dengan tajuk yg ditulis di atas apabila di terjemahkan dalam bahasa melayu berbunyi 'tak semua perempuan? suka membeli-belah' termasuklah saya...Ya aku suka bergaya(kononnyer) dan berfesyen tapi tak bermaksud aku suka membeli-belah lagi-lagi bila kena beli something specific(ops rojak lah nampaknya dlm post ni yer)

contohnya: tanah baju kurung berwarna putih, warna bunga biru mcm kain sekolah menengah dan daun hijau muda....

ok sumpah pernah kena cari masa sepupu nak kawin 2thn lepas,tapi dulu xterasa kepayahan nak mencari sebab mummy rajin carikan baju untuk kiteorg semua.

Tapi kali ni mummy dh malas,dia bagi je duit than pepandailah nak cari sendiri baju2 tersebut.

Setiap tahun mesti ade sepupu yang kawin,kadang2 smpai 2-3 org dalam setahun oleh itu setiap tahun pon tema utk mereka kawin akan berlainan warnalah kan? jadinya sepupu2 yg lain nilah kena byk keluar duit belanja untuk beli baju2 mengikut tema2 yang telah di tetapkan kalau tak nanti terasa left out pulak,than tetibe mcm bukan sedara bila xsama warna blablbabla..

Oleh itu, cara untuk berjimat adalah dengan menjadikan baju yang akan dipakai masa kenduri kawin dijadikan baju raya. Bijak x? :D

Kalau nak diikutkan xnak beli langsung baju raya, re-cycle jelahkan baju raya tahun2 lepas,bukan org sedar pon (mungkin aku sorg je yg xperasan kot) kalau org sedar pon...urm mengaku jelah ape susah, ceh xmati pon.

Nak dijadikan cerita,tema untuk sepupu yang akan melangsungkan perkahwinan pada november ni adelah NUDE COLOUR atau diterjemahkan dalam bahasa melayu ialah warna kulit?

Pada hari jumaat yang lepas,terpaksa pegi cari baju nude colour tersebut,nasib baik xpegi sorg adelah kawan yang berbaik hati nak temankan. Jadinya pada hari jumaat itu terjadilah sisi mencari baju nude colour...masa tu terfikir nak cari baju kebaya panjang,sebab fikir baju kebaya mesti ada banyak colour2 mcm tuh...

Sangkaan ku salah sama sekali,pusing satu PKNS atas bawah xde satu kedai pon jual baju kebaya panjang nude colour...apakah?

aku: ni nude colour x?

kawan: bukan tuh brown..

aku: yg ni pulak?

kawan: i rase tuh kuning cair...

aku: yg ni bukan nude colour jugak ke?

kawan: bukan itu coklat cairlah..

aku: habis tuh yg ni pon bukan nude colour?????

kawan: bukan itu hijau-coklat

aku (dah penat mencari) :yg ni pulak?

kawan: itu kaler cream lah syg

aku: #$%^&*@#$%^&*

Masa tuh dah frust sgt sebab xjumpe,penat ok berjalan sana sini (walaupon time tuh xpuasa heh) than pegilah SACC mall pulak and mmg aku xkan belilah kan baju kat situ,cube teka harga satu baju kurung berapa? tekalah teka~

satu helai baju kurung rm1000-3000

patutlah artis melayu suke beli baju kat situ,(org kata) sebab design ade satu je(org kata jugak). kalau aku millionaire pon aku xkan beli baju smpai harga macam tuh (kot).

Then aku dh mengeluarkan bunyi2 yang mengada-ngada(sebab dah penat) terlupa yg aku bukan keluar dgn kakak or abang (sebab deorg je yg tahan layan kerenah aku heheh..) nseb baiklah kawan aku ni memahami and penyabar orgnya kalau x sure dh kne penampar :D

Mase tuh dh give up n taknak dah cari lagi, dh fikir yg nak korek je semua almari yg ade kt rumah,tengok2 ade x baju colour nude heh.

Eloklah pulak kat SACC conventions center tuh jual,tapi bukan kebaya panjanglah...dapat baju kurung moden pon jadilah n dah tak fikir lagi baju tuh colour coklat cair ke,cream ke kuning cair ke..terus keluarkan duit n beli. Nasiblah kalau salah colour pon and harga dia less than budget so oklah tak murah tapi oklah....ape2lah dah malas nak fikit time tuh.

So balik dengan hati yang riang gembira sebab xpayah nak sibuk2 fikir and berniat nak belagak sikit kat kakak yg belom beli lagi hehehe..

So semalam baru try (mse beli xtry pon :O) nasib baiklah muat,tapi dapat komen yang kurang menyenangkan dari mummy...

mummy: apelah buruk sangat baju ni??? macam orang kampung je, hodoh betul,kenapa kain dia batik?xde quality lah org dah xpakai baju mcm nyh tau, pegi tuka kain dia,cari kain lain.

me TT.TT (sedih~)

Terima jelah kritikan pedas dari mummy, oh mummy pon gemini so ape yg keluar dari mulut dia mmg menusuk jiwa kalbu heheh :D

p/s: kalau korang nampak aku pakai baju kurung moden nude colour berkain batik...itulah bajunyer! asal aku suka ok lah kan? peduli apa org nk cakap heheh ^^

p/s/s: xnak tuka kain sebab malas nak cari kain lain ;p

2011 full with surprises

2011-08-10T17:30:00.007+08:00

I'm not a very social person even if i had a chance to socialise with friends i will try to make excuses not to go example tonight...i purposely doesn't want to go for nabil's birthday party or playing tennis(even though i was dying to play since the last 2weeks) is because i had enough socialising with my friends yesterday and i don't even care if they are actually different group of friends who's inviting me...very opposite on how xstrology love to describe gemini as WILD and love SOCIALISING.

Most probably the reasons is because i'm a muslim and my parents pretty strict on me(sometimes)... let's say i'm not a muslim or i grown up with the modern/western culture..i actually do think i CAN be wild n CRAZY.

I actually do have friends where i can be all crazy n wild,i used to love and call her up to hang around and do lots and lots crazy stuff.It was really fun!

But again,this evening after i just finished with classes and had only 3hrs sleep...i received a message from one of my crazy friends.I haven't seen her for almost a year and i actually do miss her alot,i did try to contact to hang around with her again but she seems too busy,as a friend i understand her.

She just sent me a simple message and than she called me...

yes i just heard ANOTHER SHOCKING NEWS EVER AND IT WAS FROM HER! i was like WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT????????????

moving on

and again not interested in telling what the news is all about but i just wanna leave a message to her..(yes i'm blogging about you here)

To my dearest and most loveliest,prettiest baby(she's the only one of my friends that i called baby :D)

Thank you for appreciating me! i have no idea that you really really REALLY value our friendship to this extend.I do considered you as one of my closesfriends but on how you just describe me just now,i was almost teared(almost :p) Thank you so much..surely you have no idea how much i was touched :) I will NEVER forget you and will love you always..i swear! i will always be by your side, you just need try to find me and i will pop out and come to you :D

I WILL DO MY BEST ^_____^

p/s: i laughed so much yesterday...i hope i won't be crying on the 22nd august 2011 :S

misunderstanding? trying to make a spark? judgmental?

2011-08-01T22:45:00.004+08:00

I'm not planning to write a new post but something changed my mind...

This is how it goes,i met my friend this afternoon,i haven't seen her for few months...not to sure on how should i say our friendship is....neither we are closefriends nor surface friends...semi-closed maybe?

It was a short meeting actually because i still have a class to attend during that time but we still manage to have a little chat.As usual we asked each others life so far...and both is in a good condition,and suddenly she asked about *insert friend's name* to me..and i was like "oh i didn't know myself haha why are you asking? why don't you ask your self? she's your friend too after all right?"

(i'm going to write in BM to make it clear on how was our conversation)

kawan: "oh i takut lah dgn dia haha"

saya: " ha? kenapa pulak u takut dgn dia? lah dia kan kwn u jugak hahah pelik sungguh"

kawan: " heheh xtaulah tp i mmg dari dulu takut dgn dia"

saya: " biar betol u ni! mcm mane pulak boleh takut dgn dia? ape dia buat? 1st time dgr nyh lawaklah haha"

kawan: "xtahulah maybe sebab dia kasar sikit kot? tp mmg takut lah dgn dia...lagi2 lepas incident kt fb tuh,xberani dah heheh"

saya: "incident ape pulak kt fb? xtau pon..storilah sikit hehe nk tau~"

kawan:" itulah,i pon same..xdelah ape2 serious sgt just comment i kt fb dulu tuh buat org lain terasa kot? i pon xtaulah..i gurau2 je xsangke boleh buat org lain terasa pulak :("

saya:"ape u ckp ni? serious xphm, comment ape? cube explain sket hehe"

then she explain the whole story to me( not interested to write what was actually happen to her)

basically i'm not trying to judge anyone or backup anyone...saying my friends was right or wrong just that...

after she told me. instantly i remembered that one of my other friend wrote about the incident in their blog...even though i know about that post but i never bother to read it and until today yes i finally read it....i won't say it was wrong to blog about it and yeah2 i understand its your blog your fb your twitter and obviously you can write anything that you want...but atleast don't write her full name...telling the whole world about it even in islam it's a sin to tell the name of someone that we don't like

(susah nk tulis in eng haha kne improve lg ni by reading,watching manga or series :p basically ape yg aku nk ckp even berdosa bile kte bg tau name dekat org lain psl keburukan or disagree with someone.....bm pon ssh jugak nk explain rupenyer >.> )

i'm not sure whether you read my blog or not and most probably you don't even know that my blog is actually exist? n your post a bout her maybe you just being sarcastic or you actually didn't mean anything?

what if i write a post specifically for you?all the bad things that i could think off, will you like it? if you dislike or hate on someone please atleast make it WORTH to be hatred for....too lazy to explain more, god give you brain so use it wisely...

p/s: my friend is very bubbly,innocent,sweet therefore,its too weird looking at her sad face.

p/s/s: i think twice or trice about posting this in my blog...supposedly i shouldn't care that much about the consequences didn't i?

The XY chromosome

2011-07-24T20:31:00.008+08:00

Or in other words they are also call male,dude,man,guys,boy,chap and err...what else?

I'm not sure whether i should be worried about this matter or not....well in case you guys wondering what kind of problem that i'm facing right now...is that i'm not attracted to the XY chromosome for the past 8years.

So far in 22years living in this world i only had fall for a guy once.....yes i repeat ONLY ONCE,and that was 8 years ago when i was in middle school...i'm not sure myself whether to called it as puppy love or a true love or a crush or or whatever terms that people now days are using. I even posted about him in my previous post.....if you guys haven't read it well let me make a quick summarised about him.He's the guy that going to be my closefriend future husband :D

This post is not about him,but generally i want to talk about guys from my own point of view,which i rarely talk about. For females usually 90% in their main conversation with their other female friends are about guys...which i found it really boring....fucking boring i must say.Maybe that is because i'm not in a relationship,i never in a relationship in my whole life not even once.Some of you might think how pathetic i am,but that never bothers me.

The problem is that i'm not even attracted to them,mostly my close male friends have a girlfriend and with that i will become more comfortable with because i will know that my male friends won't fall for me.I'm not saying i'm a lesbian or whatsoever...or maybe i am?or maybe i'm not? the only fact that i know is that i'm not interested in having a relationship at all.Some of you might say that my time haven't come yet...yeah maybe and because of that i will wait till WHEN it comes.

I remembered once azrin asked me a simple question and the question was something like this

'How do you see your self in the next 10years?' and i answered ' i will become a successful woman and also a millionaire' and i asked her why did she asked me that kind of question n she just simply reply 'nothing,your answer is a bit different than usual because most of them when i asked will said at that time they'r already married,have children and live in a happy family'.

The next 10years i will be 30+years old,and to be honest i NEVER imagine myself getting married have kids and a family.I already prepared myself what if i won't get married in the future,and have no man to rely on and not having any kids.If that will happen well, i think that i will just adopt a baby.

My mom already set for me that i HAVE to get married at the age of 26years old.....wow that won't take so long huh? the next 4years i will be getting married? i did asked her why 26? i was thinking ATLEAST i will get married at the age of 30 or 30++,as a mother she gave me thousands of reasons but i forgot most of them, the only 1 that i remember is that, i must get married before my brother's marriage,so we asked our brother when will he get married and he said when he turns 30....logically our gap is 4years so yeah i will be 26 at that time but with whom? 4 years is not that long, i totally have no idea at all,let's wait and see how it goes.

But today,i saw a different side of guys that i just met..this bunch of guys are slightly different.Why i said so? well i met T n he have a FERRARI, and he just bought AUDI R8 (FUCK THAT IS MY DREAM CAR) i'm not sure who bought the ferrari but he used his own income to buy that bloody audi r8.

I think i can give a chance to these kind of guys, i might be interested in having a relationship with them :D

p/s: i'm a bit disappointed not be able to meet AM and also to have a quick chat with A heh.

P/S/S: going to change my dream car......I WANT GHOST! GHOST! GHOST! GRRRR

I'm about to lose my mind,you've gone for so long..i'm running out of time..

2011-07-15T17:50:00.006+08:00

Please...i'm desperately want to see you...you have been MIA for so long! i cannot stand this anymore!!

I JUST DON'T FUCKING CARE IF ANYONE ELSE WANT TO BE MIA....HECK I DON'T GIVE A DAMN EVEN IF IT TAKES FOR YEARS! I WON'T CARE AND I WILL NEVER CARE! THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING,NOT WORTH TO BE CARED FOR..EVEN 'IF' I DO CARE FOR THEM,THEY WON'T APPRECIATE IT INFECT THEY HATE IT SO WHY SHOULD I WASTE MY TIME FOR THEM?, I HAD ENOUGH.

but please....not you......i need you. and i know you need me too.

I have no idea on how to reach you! All of sudden you just........missing.

Why don't you text me back? why? WHY? is't because it cost you too much? i never know 12 or 15sen per 1 text is alot for you......no that's not you...you won't do this to me..i know you wont give the lamest excuse to me...that definitely won't be the reason....and you'r not that kind of person that i know...

but at least please answer my calls...i know that you rarely call me....and the only way to reach you just by calling.....but for now......i can't call you anymore.....my hp bills reached rm250 only in 2 weeks! i'm even afraid to use it right now....i only use to text something important....or to someone that important to me.

which is......you.

what is exactly happened to you???

GOD DAMN IT!

THIS IS FRUSTRATING!

Is your hp missing? or is't broken? or someone stole it?

I'M SO WORRIED!!!!!! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU???????

i'm badly want to see you.......because i have something important to tell you...please contact me back ASAP

Two faces

2011-07-10T18:50:00.001+08:00

Hypocrite! seriously i cannot deal with this kind of people...trying to show the whole world how good and nice you are? there's only one word to describe you FAKE.

Not all people are blind stupid bitch. You are the most stupidest person i ever met in this world and yet you are so arrogant and rude. Who the hell do you think you are? you are just nobody..and you have the guts to say those things? seeyourself in the mirror first before you dare to talk.

I do feel like slapping right in your face you fucking annoying whore.

After 2 years....everything change.

2011-07-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure if i can write it down here or not.....after i was MIA for 2yrs from blogging...the only reason for me to make a new blog is just because for this particular post so yeah then i decided to write a blog again..because i have no idea on how should i express what i feel right now.

My friends circle is very small..seriously i don't really have many friends because all my surface friends i don't considered them as a friend because whether they exist or not won't affect my life.So i don't really care to those people but unlike my friends that i treasured so much currently less than 5...and yes these people i CARE them so much and i don't call them my bestfriend because i have jinx with the word BESTFRIEND...same goes to blue...i ALWAYS have problems with any of my friends who love blue as their favourite colour that is one of the reason why i hate blue so much..sounds stupid huh? but thats the fact that i realised after many years...both are jinx for me..i will always end up having relationship problem with them...and usually my friend who love blue will become my bestfriend and later will become my enemy...which i fucking hate it...because after i treasured,loving and care for them...i will loose them..and its really sad...VERY SAD.

Well who doesn't feel sad when loosing their bestfriends? Some of you might think..friend is just a friend...why bother giving them an extra care? they are not your family...as for me bestfriends is like a family..i love them the same way as i love my family..why?

Between me and my sisters we have a huge gap...10 and 7 years...so we don't share the same interest or what so ever that we currently enjoyed. I still remember one day..i was taking picture of myself with the camwhoring style and one of my sister saw it and got angry at me......? she said.." engkau berangan xsudah2 sedarlah sikit diri tuh..engaku pikir umur kau berape? kau ingat kau cantik sangat ke? malu lah sikit...." WTF? nope i'm not mad at her..she probably doesn't know that taking picture with camwhoring style is too common now days,infect i saw a 25+years old mother taking picture with the exact angle that i used with her 2+years old son..so is the mother berangan2 with her son?

As you can see there's too many things that i can't share with my family...and that is why i fucking treasure all my GOODFRIENDS. Yeah i don't call them as my bestfriend remember..so change it to my goodfriends haha so childish.

This pretty cute girl with 2deep dimples on her left and right cheek really caught my attention. To tell you the truth i don't really remember how we actually became good friend...heh. But she told me.. how we met, 1 day i came to her out of nowhere just asked her to read manga that i made...haha! so random~ so later we become goodfriends! she is the 1st friends that i considered to be my goodfriend and surprisingly same goes to her..she said i was her 1st bestfriend too :)

But then,i transfered to another school...as years pass by...we don't contact each other that often anymore...even though we studying in the same university but we are taking a totally different course..she's a smart girl and she wanted to be a good doctor and help as many people as she can in future. As i said before we are studying in the same university but we barely contact each other...we met atleast once a year(or we didn't meet at all)..2 called a year n few text massages a year...and yup we still considered as goodfriend! hehe..

In 2008 she came to my house because we missed each other...?(i don't really remember why actually haha just spending time together) as i remembered that was the last time i saw her.. starting from that day..we STOP contact each other until 2011...yup both of us MIA for 2 1/2years...even though both of us actually lived near by...i mean come on...we didn't leave the country or live in another state..she lives in sepang and i'm in shah alam and sometimes she spent most of her time in shah alam/sungai buloh or selayang see...still in selangor and yet both of us are very close to each other and yet feel so far..but none of us bother try to contact each other again.

30th june 2011 she texted me....and sent me the most SHOCKING NEWS that i ever imagine..FUCK UNTIL NOW I CAN'T BELIEVE HER NEWS! guess guess? haha! in 2 1/2 years no news from her and suddenly she gave me the most shocking news! wow she's really unpredictable...she's very good at this VERY UNPREDICTABLE!

In her text she said..she wanted to see me so badly,since both of us are very busy....and even when both of us in holiday and free... i got sick and she doesn't want to disturb me...so she just wanted to tell me that she might tie the knot soon.

..................................................................................?

*read again the text carefully*

......................................................................................................tie the knot?

*thinking*

..........................................................................................................................................marriage?

*blur*

...................................oh she want to get married soon..............................................................................

o.O

O.O

WHAT THE FUCK!?

MY BESTFRIEND WANTS TO GET MARRIED SOON??????????

WHEN IS THE ENGAGEMENT???????? DID I MISSED IT????????

WHO'S THE FUCKING GROOM??????????

DO I KNOW THE GROOM????? WAIT WHEN DO YOU GUYS IN A RELATIONSHIP?????

FUCK YOU DEEBA! WHY THE HELL DON'T YOU TELL ME EARLIER???????

I NEARLY GOT A HEART ATTACK READING YOUR TEXT!!!!!!!

XBOLEH NAK RANDOM LAGI KE??????

anyway...this is really a BIG news for me!! and when i read it i actually cried! hahah happy that she getting married and i was also sad thinking she's gonna leave me soon(even though at that time she doesn't want to tell me who is she's getting married too)and i was actually dying to know with what kind of guy she agreed to tie a knot?????

so who's the guy? here comes the FUCKING FUNNY part! XD

she came to my house that day and yet she doesn't want to tell me who the fucking guy is..she said she will tell me after solat asar...i was like ok..you go now for solat asar! now i said now hurry!!! hahah~ DYING TO KNOW~

Then when she's done with her prayer...slowly she said...yes you knew him..u knew him very well....*my face all written said NAME! GIVE ME THE NAME!!*

then she said when we were in middle school we used to usha him alot......

DANG!

SHE'S GETTING MARRIED WITH THE GUY THAT I USED TO FALL IN MIDDLE SCHOOL?

PFFT!

WOW! I REALLY THOUGHT ITS ONLY HAPPEN IN DRAMAS OR MOVIE!

BUT HEY THIS IS REAL OK? THIS IS THE REALITY!!!!!

ITS ACTUALLY HAPPEN IN REALITY!AND IT HAPPENS TO ME!!!!!

ok let's call this dude z

WHAT THE FUCK???? U'R GETTING MARRIED WITH Z? R U SERIOUS???? Z???? THIS DUDE???

let me talk about z

in my whole life...so far i have been living in this world for 22years... z is the ONLY guy that i fallen for...and i used to in love? with him for fucking 3years! YES 3 FUCKING YEARS!!! This stupid puppy love happened when i was in middle school and now my bestfriend might tie the knot with him? WOW DRAMA! and i laughed!!!!!! XD

I still remember she said she doesn't like him...and she will help for me to get him (before when we were in school) thank god i doesn't like him anymore...i also forgot why all off sudden i hate him...but that doesn't matter but i still think that the whole thing is funny! i mean come on...my bestfriend have alot of guys friends..and too many guys to be count that love her and want her to be their wife..yes i must agree she can be a really good wife..but why you still choose z to be your husband? why?? wow this is really funny~ (she explained to me all the reasons but i think its not important to tell here anyway)

To z damn! u'r so lucky!! u r taking my bestfriend away from me....wow u broke my heart twice!

So i'm trying to make an extra drama with her...so i said to her...what if i said i still love him? :D

JENG JENG JENG!

will she choose me? or him?

our friendship? or your happiness with him?

her answer is.........

SHE CHOOSE ME!!!!!

now i can die from happiness haha!!

i knew you will choose me over him! i knew it i knew it!

I'M FUCKING HAPPY :D

even though she's gonna leave me soon and we wont be able to do all sorts of crazy things that we used to do it together or talk about random stuff ever again but atleast i know one exactly thing that important to me....

SHE LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE HER :)

P/S: i think i forgot that people come and go...so far all my goodfriends are leaving me...either they in a relationship with a guy,getting engage,working,studying abroad etc2....i will still be forever alone.

p/s/s: oh btw i'm also goin to be her pengapit on her wedding! yay~ its gonna be my 1st time being a pengapit ^^ as what she told me..too many of her other friends request to be her pengapit but then again...SHE CHOOSE ME! <3

famous

2011-07-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

I bet my labu's video gonna reach 1k soon! hahah~

Here's the video,i uploded in my youtube channel..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UIY8yXYt3Oo&feature=channel_video_title

but somehow,i have 1 dislike for the video....that person probably wrongly read it as thisilike..heh.